.Monday, February 21, 2005 ' 9:32 PM Y
oHhH..bRo is back!! I thought he wun be back..ok, I dun care. I was surfing the net, den he juz came into the room and get me out of my seat, as if his power or status or wadeva is damn great liddat. yEs, he was always very domineering in the hse, damn pampered!! I understand that the com belongs to him now, but juz wanna ask him, when we used to share this com, how many times had u ever let me use the com in peace?? I doubt if he understands the word, SHARE.....!! please lol, I had always been very kind to him by letting the com to him!! Perhaps I shld have blamed myself fer being to kind. I takes advantage of these privileges, and I knew it, how stoopid am i. Now the problem can't be solved, coz I had been too kind to him ever since he was young. I had let him have the com whenever he wants, ever since the first day the com every "stepped" into my hse.
Din quarrel with him, coz I find it too childish, perhaps he is one. But juz felt sooper disappointed, always been so kind to him, countless, but yet he still treats me liddat, a nobody, and even said that I din treat him like a bro!! cOme on la, if I din treat as a bro, will I do things fer him, such as washing his blardy shoes and ironing his shirt??!! If I dun treat him as a bro, would I be soo kind to him by tolerating all his stoopid arguments and actions??
I dun give a damn!! I juz wanna tok abt him, coz I had already had enuf!! speaking abt this afternoon, rilly damn fuck up with him lol. u noe wad, he ordered me to leave the com immediately lol, without even asking..as if I'm a nobody!! knowing that I'm feeling angry and pissed off, he still add in some "pepper and salt" to it, some sarcastic and hurting remarks!! it may not be hurting to him, coZ he doesn't understand, but its hurting to me. Felt so emotional and sad all of a sudden and almost burst out in tears!! Frm that moment, I pledge myself not to have a bf like him in future. So I juz ended my speech with one sentence " bro, relac, I wun even harass ur com in future! " I noe all these words I had juz typed is going to be very insulting to my bro, but hu cares?? I had tolerated too much. Sometimes I even blamed myself fer being so stoopid to tolerate so much and later fall into big hole, which eventually hurts!! I hate pple not giving me the respect I need!! regardless of bro and sis relation, or senior and junior relation!!
fInE, I shall not speak abt this anymore, even if my bro sees this entry, I DUN GIVE A DAMN!!!
