.Monday, February 27, 2006 ' 11:01 PM Y
Well, i worked again. Finished the payroll stuffs finally!
In love with a little boy named, Paul Barrett.
Paul Barrett had his violin lesson today, 6.50pm. At 7.05 pm, he ran out of studio B and exclaimed, *smiley face*, " i am done jiejie!!" But actually, he was still having lesson. Haha, this boy is so damn cute. His bright smile actually cheered me up and make me feel more refreshing than ever!
haiz...if my brother was as cute as him.......how nice... (=
.Sunday, February 26, 2006 ' 11:35 PM Y
The Blogger Game. -tagged by junwei.Rules.
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover.
2. need to mention the sex of the target.
3. tag eight victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying they have been tagged.
4. If tagged the second time, there is no need to post again.
8 points of my darling.- good looking-understanding-smart, but not so smart.-to be always there for me when i need his care and help.-not too emotional and sensitive.-have loads of money.-firm and steady. -honest and decisive.My target? A
guy of course!
haha, my victims!-peggy-yijun-jiawei-adeline-tingwei-cherie-kangwei-sabrina
.Saturday, February 25, 2006 ' 11:46 PM Y
damn fucked up with my computer. It is like getting more and more laggy. Everything is so SLOW! haiz.. my parents kept talking about unhappy stuffs today. I hate to hear all those. These dampen my mood. sort of.
Regreting. Am i regreting now? Or am i going to regret later? Puzzled. I felt so lost all of a sudden. But i could not tell anyone, coz i dun even know who to confide. My parents? nope, not the right choice to tell them. not suitable for such problems. friends? Will they understand how i feel? Not exactly, coz most of them are not facing this problem. So who to talk to? I really don't know. Lol, this is not the first time i face such problem whereby i don't know who to confide. Nvm. No one cares.
All right, so after talking so much, what is it abt?
Well, the posting results are coming out soon. I chose to study in a jc despite of my lousy L1R5. Intially, when i got my results on the 10th of feb, around 3.15pm in the afternoon, i was really overjoyed that i can get 16 pts and i can actually get into a jc. ( i mean for my standard. for someone who had 29 pts for prelims.) But when i looked around, there were so many 10 pointers. And all of them are either my classmates or close friends. Even for someone who got 40 plus pts for prelims can actually get 16 pts for Os. I then realised how lousy i am. Really sad. My parents and biao jie told me not to compare with others, Compare with urself. I know that i am comparing my score with others. But hello, who doesn't compare?? It is human nature! However, i still tried to put on a smile and even told my family and relatives tt i am "very happy" with my results. *pui!* Weijun was happy for me although he thought tt i could score better than this. So tt day, i tried to do lottas stuffs like spending money and be crazy to cheer myself up. It succeeded.
Fine. So when i reached home, my mum started to ask me what jc am i planning to go. I then started to flip the jae booklet. I looked at pj science stream. Gahx..i then found out tt my score is actually very risky for me to get in. wtf! So frm tt day on, i started panicking till the day i submitted my jae form. Just told myself to give a try.
Now, i kept asking myself, perhaps i shld try art stream. Coz i am actually more interested in uni courses like theatre studies, mass com and stuffs like tt. But judging frm my english standard, i better not study. Coz it is not a matter of passing, it is matter of scoring.
I also did put some poly courses in my choices. I regreted for not putting tourism courses as my 5th choice. I have actually put chemical tech, which is not what i am interested now. I am so damn fickled minded. So what if i get into this poly course. Really worried and scared. Due to my lousy L1R5, i may not even get into a jc lo. Really dunno what to do except to chant and wait for my posting results.
To my friends out there, u may not be facing this problem and may not even understand how i am feeling right now. *sob sob*. If i had score better.....damn ME!!! All my fault for my lousy score even though i have tried my best. But all these had past..well..
Recently, these few days, i am very free at home. Staying at home doing nothing, except reading newspapers and disturbing pple on msn. Felt so useless when i see pple so busy with their studies. Looking forward to my jc life, but still miss my 3 mths of holidays so much. Well, starting jc life and to get into jc life is totally different. As you know, the pple in there are 3 mths ahead of me although i have done self studying at home. fruitless!
seemed to be enjoying my life now..
but....not exactly..
grumbling, regreting.
hopeless, sad, despair, scared, lost, useless.
no more words to describe my feeling now. *sob*
what shld i do???
.Wednesday, February 22, 2006 ' 9:34 PM Y
My house is infested with cockcroaches recently. Big big ones, can fly de! Today is the fourth one le!! Damn disgusted by these dirty creatures!just came back frm somewhere.went to fly kite with sam behind woodgrove condo just now, in the evening. haha, damn fun and "lame". I managed to let the kite fly high up in the air, yeepee!! Wanted to learn roller blading frm sam just now, but it was a bit late liao. So i left her place for dinner at woodgrove. After that, i went to visit er kor. I find myself a bit weird today. Why am I hiding frm pple today??? I am not like that in normal days! Am i abnormal today?? argh! what happen to me??Anyway, i had a good chat with er kor just now. Still fascinated with his cutie butt! -opps, i am not a pervert kay! Left at around 8 plus after doing what i am supposed to do. I got a free tiny notebook from the rhythm company. And there are two funny quotes there. It is critisizing about photostatting.Photostatting is CHEATING!
Photostatting
Discourages writers from writing good
books for your benefit
and that will affect your
learning and knowledge.
Do the right thing
BUY ORIGINALS!
Photostatting is STEALING!
Photostatting
People who photostat
are thieves-they steal
the writer's income.
So are those who use
photostat copies.
Are you one of them?
Do the right thing.
Buy ORIGINALS!
haha, just feel like posting these on my blog, for nothing! =)
.Monday, February 20, 2006 ' 11:56 PM Y
This is me after the performance. Just got myself changed in the lorry. LOL, i looked so sweaty tired, what an ugly shot of me. BoO!
. ' 11:26 PM Y
still not satisfied with my new blogskin. I prefer those tt come out at one go, rather than clicking on the icons for the sections.my bro is not going sch tommorrow, and i am staying at home the whole day, oh gosh! sianx!very tired, but i dun feel like slping....can someone entertain me??the thoughts of u.....
.Sunday, February 19, 2006 ' 9:11 PM Y
another day again! kind of miss my so called "life". These three months..i have been enjoying myself although i had work. I wonder how am i going to survive when my school starts next month. I really hope tt i can get used to my jc life easily. Hope tt i can really switch my play mood to the study mood. It's a tough job k!
Ytd was the heartlander thingie at taman jurong..ohh, it was supposed to be a chingay parade in taman jurong for the residents there. Din get to see yiepsoon there. Everything went on fine, except tt the atmosphere was not as high as the one on 4th Feb. Enjoyed myself, hey, it's a nice feeling to walk on the road freely, dancing happily without worrying about the oncoming cars kays!
gahx..i watched 2 movies in a week..haha, thursday was pink panther, and friday was I'm not stupid too. Both shows were great, but i still feel tt i'm not stupid too is better. LOL!
very worried...my "holidays" is almost finishing. wahhh!! i want to know my posting results!! Really hope tt i can get into pj..haiz..weird..everybody is aiming and hoping to get into schools like nj and hci..but i am not.. i juz want to get to somewhere tt is near my place and somewhere i can make lottas good friends! Friends are important.
Imagine u have "friends" who are not friendly and always
think highly abt themselves! It is equivalent to know no friends. (=
My mum is nagging abt my work and school's stuffs! arghx!! kind of irritating! When will this end?? Is like as if i don't know what is time management!! hey, come on! ur daughter is turning 17 in abt 2months! I know what i am doing and what i want to do! I am not like my brother who seems to know nothing abt life!
I shall chant more to stop all these naggings! I truely believe in the strength of diamoku.
Oh ya, thanx to aurelia for giving me all the notes (all four subjects), and for taking the time and effort to rush down to cwp to give me! I had been reading all these notes these few days, of course at my free time. I understand almost everything... but but but, haha, again, physics may kill me again. The first chapter, or module, was abt measurements. It was not very tough, juz tt there were some more new formulas only. I think i am going to engaged on physics tutor for my sake. And I told my mum abt this too. -see how sensible ur daughter is! gahh!
I miss my er kor(sj). YEAH!! got my er sao liao..but sotong er kor had totally forgotten to take a photo with her! HAHA, this is how blur my er kor is! not very surprising.
always in mind..why did u kept appearing in my dreams, u little rascal! Can someone tell me why??!!!???
.Tuesday, February 14, 2006 ' 4:38 PM Y
Gahhhxx..submitted my JAE thingie..finally! hMm..am i really happy with the results? haiz..haha, juz hope to get into pjc.
Today is valentines day. (chey! what is it going to do with me?) oh well, actually i wanted to go out in the afternoon, but i was too lazy to move out of my hse..LOL. Tt's why i am still at home now. I want my ER SAO!!
Maybe i am going down to woodgrove tommorrow, although the place is so sickening. See if jasmine, michelle, samantha are there! I want to visit them, and shun bian look for shaojie and LaoDa! yEepEe!
I want a new school bag!! My old bag is so smelly! Hope i can get a roxy one!
.Wednesday, February 08, 2006 ' 2:36 PM Y
Chingay2006-parades of dreams!
Me at TBSC, in the black costume!
sherin, shilei, me and chiaming! Are we pretty??
I stared at shilei's camera!!
tronix on the last training..
zixing and me!
me and trey!haha, suddenly juz feel like posting some pics on my blog. All my chingay friends rawks! ehh..boonie is going to feel bored again if he visit my blog, coz i kept talking abt chingay stuffs. well, those pictures shld not be very bored le hor!
this friday!!!!!! friday!!!!!! the scariest day!!!! hope i can still smile like what i did in the above pics after i have recieved my results!! Please!!
.Monday, February 06, 2006 ' 10:58 PM Y
Flowers are at their best for mere moments. But the time they spend preparing to bloom is incomparably long. Many seeds die without even sprouting. Some plants absorb what little sunlight they recieve and take ten years to bear a single flower.
Flower appeal to us because they bloom only after a long persevering struggle. Beautiful colours and sweet perfume are the crystalization of the wisdom of flowering plants to survive. They attract insects that spread and seeds. thereby contributing to their poliferation.
Flowers are tough, sometimes even tougher than people, they are contenders who fight to win. They teach us this lesson: to live is to fight.
-Daisaku Ikeda-
I love this part the most. Very meaningful. Hope I am like the flowers..strong and tough.. Anyway, this so called gosho is given by my chingay trainers.
very moody now....dunno what happen to me..lol!
haiz..chingay is over..sadx....miss all my chingay friends a lot. Hope I can see u guys on the 18 of feb in Jurong for the heartlander item. U all rock!
I love U!
Attention to all my pianist friends!!
Is anyone free on either wed, thurs or fri? BB sec choir needs a piano accomplist for their SYF this year. The SYF is on the 16 of April. And their choir trainings are on:
wednesday: 12.30pm to 2.30pm
thursday: 1.30pm to 3.30pm
friday: 1.30pm to 3.30pm
The minimum requirement is a grade 8 for practical. And sight reading must be quite good. The pay is $20 per hour. Quite a good pay ya! So if any of my pianist friends are interested, call me at 93901208. haha, thanx!
Chingay2006-parades of dreams!
Me at TBSC, in the black costume!
sherin, shilei, me and chiaming! Are we pretty??
I stared at shilei's camera!!
tronix on the last training..
zixing and me!
me and trey!