.Thursday, August 30, 2007 ' 8:33 PM Y
ello!!! had my gp prelim today!! LOL. Hard as usual!! Just hoping for a pass....hopefully a D?
hmm...had lunch with tiffany, marcus and his classmates after paper. Then went straight home to sleep until 7pm. Tmr is teachers' day!! I think i am only looking forward to see mr lum and his weird costume! I gonna wear FBT shorts and my OVERSIZED class t-shirt, since some dumbo claimed that by wearing that is a bitch. LOL. At least im glad that my legs are not as fat, as thick and as black as someone. HAHA. I love peggy (PJ de) to bitts man!! Someone's self proclaimed best friend!! wahahaha. She knows who is the one that is really despo for guys. wahahaha!!
Gonna visit my cousin tomorrow night!! She is going UK to pursue her uni studies, shld be leaving for UK at around 9th of sept. So i gotta make my way to senja kaikan to buy her some books to encourage her when she is alone abroad. =)
OO..just remembered that my piano scores are still with WeiDe!! LOL. gonna get for him one day!! All the piano scores of the movie "secret" leh!!!! wonderful man!!!
.Thursday, August 23, 2007 ' 7:40 PM Y
Im a nice person. I can tolerate many types of behaviours. BUT, i especially dislike people who say things behind behind my back, regardless of who they are, be it my friends, my relatives or my family members. I dun care if you did it out of ur care concern of me, or whether u are just kaypoh-ing around. But please, if you have any doubts of my life, ask me or talk to me straight in my face. I really hate it when someone tells the whole about my private life, and end up i am the last to know.
Please bear in mind, among so many friends and relatives, i only invite a few to read. If i lost trust in that person, you will never get to know my stuffs anymore. Not at all. If you are wondering why am i so cruel, YES, thats me. Im like that since young. I love to talk, i trust most of my friends and relatives. As much as i can, i will try to tell them all my stuffs. But if you betray my trust, you will know what i will do. That's my nature.
And im especially smart in knowing who that "betrayer" is in a short period of time. =)
and i guess you know who u are.
.Sunday, August 05, 2007 ' 12:42 AM Y
alrite! I shall update my blog!! hmm, just back from sam's birthday party!! Had lottas fun there! Took a lot of photos, ate like a glutton, laughed like nobody's business and took a little alcoholic drinks too. Nehnehkiaz rocks!! Ur the best..but its a pity that peggy wasnt there. haha.
hmm, time for some serious reflections. haha. alrite, lets shift the time machine one yr back, and then compare the past to the present. hm, so this is how it goes.
Sometimes i wonder, what does it means when ur guy friend tries to get close to you? Does he truely and purely wants to make friend with u and treasure u as a friend? Or isst due to some other motives? eg; he is fond of you and he hopes to starts a relationship with you. I get really scared when i meet such a situation, coz like someone told me, "its better to make more friends in life, rather than turning him or her into ur enemy for no reason." Yes, it is definitely true, but its so hard when making decision, judging whether ur opinion of him is right or wrong.
I got a real bad experience regarding this issue. And im really puzzled. I felt so cheated and silly. He, used to laugh, talk and joke with me a lot. He, used to be my best confider in life. He, used to be the person i trusted most. He, used to give me a lot of encouragement and be the one for me when i am down and helpless. He, was once my best besties in life. And the silliest joke was that, i fell in love with him and i even agreed to start a relationship with him. That was a year ago. But he is so different in the present. He, lost interest in someone he used to love a lot last time. And im still crazily in love with him for the past few months. Recently, he just entered a new environment, a new phase of life. I wished my dear friend for the very best and hope that he is enjoying life. I treated him like a good friend, and happily thought that he was like before. But guess what? I was utterly wrong. Ever since he entered a new environment, he had completed changed. He was so weird to me! He refuses to talk to me, love to tell me "dun need to reply le", denied that i have called him, and even din bother to ask me why i called.
Being innocent and blur, i consulted my laoda. He is a great man, and a great "brother" of mine. Then he told me, "girl, u know what, when a guy is single and not attached to anyone, he tend to divert his attention away very easily, especially when he enters a new environment. His mindset and thinking towards relationships and life partners will change drastically. believe me, this happened to both my ex before."
Then i thought to myself, why are guys so selfish? They change so drastically, and expect those people beside to accept it without humming a single word. So when he says, "i dun love you anymore, go away." or "i tried to love you, but i failed" when he was the one who jio you in the first place, and you are supposed to be expected to accept these nonsences and not fight back? Life dun work this way!
And when he doesnt love you anymore, he shoos away from you and dun treat you as friend as before when you just knew him? And again i am supposed to accept this fact in silence and not ask him abt it? So am i supposed to act as if i dunno anything and go his way?
So am i suppose to make this conclusion that he got close to me for his own purpose, coz he likes me and he wish to start a relationship with me? I really dunno..
Im ranting all these random stuffs coz i am really puzzled. This is my worst experience ever. really. Sensei, what should i do? I know i am supposed to place my studies. But frankly speaking, i wanna know the reason why..
But at least, i am not feeling anymore pain now. Coz i am no longer in love with anybody and "he" is no longer my cup of tea. And i gonna thank loada for his advices.
Im not trying to emphasize that it hurts a lot to be in a relationship. Its good to have several experiences. But please, at least open ur eyes wider when choosing a life partner. Dun spend ur precious time with someone and realise that he is not worth even a cent after a few months or years of relationship. Its not wise to do so, and it certainly cause some harm to you. Please invest ur time wisely. =)
MICKEYs at siloso with soccer ball!!
the girls-sam, me, XL, Shuli, kaixian
our booboo faces!!!
6 yrs of friendship!! still counting on.... I LOVE THEM TO BITTS!!!
RP toliet is so fun!!! woots!!
And these are my asd friends with pretty diana!!! we were in zouk!!