.Tuesday, July 12, 2005 ' 10:54 PM Y
heys..I had not updated my blog for quite sometime as i was busy with lots of events. yCF is over..my happy ending..haha..not really..coz i still miss ycf a lot. It was really fun and i get to learn many stuffs, and I also get to understand some of the principles said by many pple. Looking for the next fd meeting and the ycf celebration..haha...and it is at the end of july. The first day, 9/7 was especially memorable and interesting..but the second day sark..not that fun anymore..and I was pissed off by two persons, thanx to them man! I dun understand why some pple can be so selfish and yet they still can get the things they yearned for..the world is soo unfair..
I know that i am not supposed to be here now as i have tonnes of hwk undone..but I am really damn stressed up this week. Time seems to fly so fast that I feel that i dun have enough time to complete what i want to do..tests are coming up..more and more. But i felt that i am so unprepared..I had never felt like this b4..i dunno why i became like that now. i got weird feeling that my o level chinese result will be horrible and all my tests will be equally horrible too. I dun even feel like coming to school now. i dun want to see my teachers now.. and i even felt unwanted!! oh no..what had happened to me!! I felt like crying everytime i think of this.. I even cried on one particular night..i think it is on the sunday that had just past. I always think that i am a thick skinned person and I will nv cry at any circumstances. But i failed to do so. I still can't control my tears..except after the ycf performance..i did not cry despite the fact that many pple cried. I am totally out of control.
There is a rehearsal tommorrow, and it is going to be at night. I heard that the rehearsal on saturday was horrendous. Although they practised so much, the principal did not even listen AT ALL, due to time constrain..wtf lol! Lets pray that tommorrow will be fine.
I am very tired of anything..including *you*.....i need hope and miracle now...
can you hug me once more??
