.Friday, March 16, 2007 ' 2:10 PM Y
ohh well, one week just past like that, and i am glad that i had finally done some constructive studying today..in fact it started last night! I studied my atmosphere geog finally, at least i know what are all the cells, wind and pressure belts up to. So i am rewarding myself with short break right now. haiz..but sadly speaking, my brain is still not functioning at its optimal level yet. Hopefully i will perform miracles next week. oh gosh, some blessings for me please!!! =)
Been very emo these few days. My topic kept revolving around "her"..ermm..apparently, someone. Many people around me kept commenting about "her" in front of me, and my mum gave me some of her opinions too. Have been thinking about it and i find it quite true. Must be the stupidity in me which does not allow me to realise it earlier. If i had, then maybe those hurtful things might not happen. hmm..i guess i should heed some advices from my mum this time.
ooo..did i mention that my da mu gua is back!!! haha. Can finally contact him easily, although the cost is still the main problem. hmm..not used to what i am calling him now, and somehow there is a distance between us. I guess i should not be bothering about the obstacles and questioning myself too much regarding this issue. I can safely say that i am still doing fine, although being able to be back to our past is still the best choice. But there is nothing i can do right now, as you it is not up to me to change the situation. oh well.....
This week has been a boring one for me, with all the mock tests and studying...brrr...ruins my week completely man!! Math is a pain to me, geog is still manageable, chem is still okay, with the
help from mrs soh, i guess i am still surviving well. I gonna stay at home to do my intensive studying till that bloody common tests are over!!
I am still unsure whether my decisions are right. I know what is best for me. Right now, i am only aware that my best days are over, and it seems that i will never get back to my old days, my happy-go-lucky character. With the incomplete yet important piece in my life, it makes me feel so naked and uneasy. You know what i mean, and you know how much you mean to me. haiz..but whatever it is, i sincerely wish you all the best. I hope you will still be as cheerful as before, like how you behaved when i first lay my eye on you.
你那灿烂的笑容，对我来说是多么的珍贵的
如果你还爱我，请你告诉我
我会一直陪在你的身边，做你的专属天使
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但如果我令你感到难过，请你忘了我........
