.Sunday, May 13, 2007 ' 11:00 PM Y
Very frusfrated with poisson!! coz i dun really know how to do!! gRrRR!!! I hate stats!!!! (=
alrite..hmm...din really do any constructive studying, only managed to finish two tutorials when there are actually a lot more! Cant really concentrate these two days...my mind is swirling round and round, kinda deep in thoughts. Dun wanna elaborate..hmm..but i am still regretting what i have done that day! I should not be influenced by the surrounding! haiz..but as said, what is done cannot be undone, its that spark that changed the both of us. too bad. I once told him to move on and be a happy boy. hahaz, i guess i am just good in talking. Frankly speaking, when i reflected on myself, i realised that my feelings for erm has not faded that much yet..haha..sounds childish right? but that's the truth that i can't deny!! I have been hiding my true feelings for months!! I dun wanna make u sad, i dun wanna let my feelings affect you..its just me, ME and nobody else, coz i was the one who caused that idiotic spark. haha, its been MONTHS and yet i am still yanking about this. But i just cannot help myself to pour out all these so called sorrows! bRrR!! Where's my promise? my promise i made to myself?? oHh gosh!!
i sounded sad for once again.
alrite, lets not digress. I am always a happy go lucky girl, perhaps this is the sentimental side of me..not emo pls! yeap..we seems to be losing our identity ("yea, u know what i am refering to right?") And i dun wanna this day to happen! That sense of security seems to have faded somewhere or somehow.. So near yet so far.. hiding away from me, or keeping secrets away from doesn't help you know.... I'm not trying to manipulate you, really, but you rmbed what we promised each other? no secrets btw us no matter what right? I have certainly kept my promise, when isst ur turn then? I hope that promise we made is still valid yea?
Anway, i have just cut my hair ytd!! finally!! haha. And i am adoring my fringe to bittsss!! woohoo!! Took a lot of pictures recently too, i wanna upload all of them into my com, but i dun have the cable and the bluetooth connector!! wahhh!!
Time doesn't really help me to heal that wound, or to let my feelings for you go.. I really wanna say out loud here..... wherever you go, i miss you so...ur deeply missed...love you always! You are just so important and dear to me....somehow.. =)
i sound IDIOTIC once again...
....and i know you wun read my blog..hmm..its okay, no worries..
back to my lala land. gonna slp to replenish energy for monday BLUES! nitex everyone! =)
