.Wednesday, December 05, 2007 ' 5:51 PM Y
Prom night just ended yesterday. Daniel Ong was the host. hmm, just a typical prom night..haha. I was late for prom due to my work and all the makeups and hair styling. But nevertheless, i enjoyed myself. And thanks to sam for helping me to do makeup and hair styling! Many of my friends said that my makeup was very nice! haha. THANK YOU!!!! :)waiting for my friends to send me the photos...haha...its everywhere!!! And xuelian won the sony camera!!! LOL!!!! So lucky!!!! And the questions and answers for the prom queens and kings (especially) were so funny!!On a sadder note, the same person pissed me off again. I have tried my very best to maintain this friendship with you...its really tough you know....i have no problem with everyone except you. I dun need you to acknowledge my effort. But you know, sometimes i wonder whether u behave like this purposely, or u dunno what you are doing, or you dun mean anything. But whatever it is, its the attitude that is pissing me off. When i call you for a casual chat (which is once in a bluemoon), or i ask you to catch up with you (also once in a bluemoon), he gave me this attitude that "hey, im busy, i have no time for you, go away!" im not thinking too much, but its so obvious! I dunno whether is he aware of it...Maybe he dun mean that, but he din noe that his actions and attitude really mean that way.. you can't expect me to accept ur nasty attitude and ask me not to think so much when you dun even bother to watch how you treat me!You know, sometimes i feel so bad after hollering at you, coz its not my nature to scream at my friends... But it is really over my limit!!! I know its a bad attitude to scream at a friend especially when he or she dun even owe you a single thing. Its so difficult to be in this position.... So stuck!! Scream at someone and feel guilty when it is not really ur fault.Im so tired. Maintaining this friendship is so difficult. Asking him out is like owing him my life and distrupting his life cycle. No more outings, no more phone calls. I have no more energy for this game, and i am certainly sick of it.My friend ( i wun disclose the name coz he only tells this to his close friends) once told me this, " If you treat someone as your close friend, you cannot expect the other party to see you as a close a friend ( as close as you treat him/her) too. I finally know what you mean, thanks a lot!Im very disappointed and upset. really. what a failure. And i dun understand why.
