.Saturday, April 12, 2008 ' 3:43 PM Y
I hate it when people take me for granted. I hate it when others dun appreciate what i have done. I know im a nice girl, but this doesnt mean you can take advantage of my kindness, and it also doesnt mean that im not aware of what others is up to. Im not stupid.As a good friend of anyone, i dun mind listening to what u want to share. I dun mind listening to one's sorrow and joy. But i hate it when one only come to me when he/she has a problem when when the storm is over, you are then automatically out of my sight, and will only come back when u meet the next problem and that u have no one to confide.Im so glad to have my nehnehkiaz. I miss 207 sometimes, although its a naughty class. Its makes up my best memories of my days in bpghs. 6 years of friendship. It doesnt come easy, but at least i know it is built to last, and its always a true one.Busy. Busy is a very good word to give when you need an excuse. By the way, this paragragh has nothing to do with those craps i have just written on top. Oh yea..busy busy busy. Im a busy girl too by the way, especially recently. I have my work to attend, i have to squeeze out lots of my weekday nights and weekends to practise my piano, coz i really wanna do well this time. I have my piano lesson to attend, which is not anywhere NEAR my house. I have lots of gakkai activities going on recently. April institutional meeting, HR festival, home visiting bla bla bla. And im really glad to have this oppotunity to be involved, to do something for ASD, to contribute as much as i can. Its tough, but i will definitely endure it. And last but least, i have NDP trainings and its going to get more intense as its nearing to the actual day. While others are busy with their own stuffs, i sometimes really hope that others will also be aware that im very busy and thus be able to squeeze out sometime for me.Im really tired of being a good person. And its really hard coz you have to sacrifice urself for others. And worst come to worst is when the other party doesnt appreciate what you have done and even accused you for nothing.And i really hate it when people dun give me any reply when i actually ask you out... and all you replied was to ask me question that only concerned YOURSELF. By the way, this is another issue again, different from the previous paragraph.Im in a very very bad mood.So please do not disturb me for the time being.I hope tonight's NDP training will bring some smile on my face and lift up my mood. I need a lot of courage and guidance to face this challenge. I have lots of minor irritating issues which accumulate to form a big issue. Im really very frusfrated with myself now.On the side note, i hope this year's birthday will be an enjoyable one.... although its still weeks away. Im not a demanding girl.
