.Wednesday, May 14, 2008 ' 10:55 PM Y
how does it feels when u find urself struggling alone in this practical society? The desperation of getting what u want so badly, the desperation for constructive ideas and opinion, and most importantly the desperation of getting some understanding from your loved ones..
how does it feels when u suddenly realised ur loved ones dun understand you at all, at this crucial moment, and that you have to turn to your immediate friends and distant one...
IT HURTS when not even your loved ones support your opinion, the future you wanna lead.. ive been trying hard, but everytime i seems to have failed badly.. and they feel that i dun even bother to give a damn at all. The deadline is drawing near, im more worried than anyone else, and i have to find the best solution to calm myself down so that my loved ones wun get worried abt me and i dun wanna them to worry for nothing. But then they told me i dun seem to care.. Im really upset. really.
I know i may look calm and relax, but deep inside, im not.. i admit i have hidden my feelings very well... but im so disappointed that my loved ones dun understand me.. They even asked me, "hey, you can still sit here so relaxed in front of your com and dun even bother to discuss with us.." Im very lost..im still in search of the best way to solve this problem..and im trying very hard, and i tell them everyday regarding this issue..and yet this is what i hear from them..
oh well, i din noe results matter so much, even to your loved ones. Results determined your future path, your uni admission, and most importantly, it determines how others look at you. I always heard others saying, " No matter how others look down on you, your loved ones will definitely not, and will support you all the way" But today, i just realised, these words are simply nonsences. To the innocent ones, let me tell you, this will never exist in such a modern and practical society.
I think i need some councelling.
Im truely hurt.
